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INTO the shadow-white chamber silts the white | |
| Flux of another dawn. The wind that all night | |
| Long has waited restless, suddenly wafts | |
| A whirl like snow from the plum-trees and the pear, | |
| Till petals heaped between the window-shafts | 5 |
| In a drift die there. | |
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| A nurse in white, at the dawning, flower-foamed pane | |
| Draws down the blinds, whose shadows scarcely stain | |
| The white rugs on the floor, nor the silent bed | |
| That rides the room like a frozen berg, its crest | 10 |
| Finally ridged with the austere line of the dead | |
| Stretched out at rest. | |
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| Less than a year the fourfold feet had pressed | |
| The peaceful floor, when fell the sword on their rest. | |
| Yet soon, too soon, she had him home again | 15 |
| With wounds between them, and suffering like a guest | |
| That will not go. Now suddenly going, the pain | |
| Leaves an empty breast. | |
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II
A tall woman, with her long white gown aflow | |
| As she strode her limbs amongst it, once more | 20 |
| She hastened towards the room. Did she know | |
| As she listened in silence outside the silent door? | |
| Entering, she saw him in outline, raised on a pyre | |
| Awaiting the fire. | |
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| Upraised on the bed, with feet erect as a bow, | 25 |
| Like the prow of a boat, his head laid back like the stern | |
| Of a ship that stands in a shadowy sea of snow | |
| With frozen rigging, she saw him; she drooped like a fern | |
| Refolding, she slipped to the floor as a ghost-white peony slips | |
| When the thread clips. | 30 |
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| Soft she lay as a shed flower fallen, nor heard | |
| The ominous entry, nor saw the other love, | |
| The dark, the grave-eyed mistress who thus dared | |
| At such an hour to lay her claim, above | |
| A stricken wife, so sunk in oblivion, bowed | 35 |
| With misery, no more proud. | |
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III
The strangers hair was shorn like a lads dark poll | |
| And pale her ivory face: her eyes would fail | |
| In silence when she looked: for all the whole | |
| Darkness of failure was in them, without avail. | 40 |
| Dark in indomitable failure, she who had lost | |
| Now claimed the host, | |
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| She softly passed the sorrowful flower shed | |
| In blonde and white on the floor, nor even turned | |
| Her head aside, but straight towards the bed | 45 |
| Moved with slow feet, and her eyes flame steadily burned. | |
| She looked at him as he lay with banded cheek, | |
| And she started to speak | |
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| Softly: I knew it would come to this, she said, | |
| I knew that some day, soon, I should find you thus. | 50 |
| So I did not fight you. You went your way instead | |
| Of coming mineand of the two of us | |
| I died the first, I, in the after-life | |
| Am now your wife. | |
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IV
Twas I whose fingers did draw up the young | 55 |
| Plant of your body: to me you looked eer sprung | |
| The secret of the moon within your eyes! | |
| My mouth you met before your fine red mouth | |
| Was set to songand never your song denies | |
| My love, till you went south. | 60 |
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| Twas I who placed the bloom of manhood on | |
| Your youthful smoothness: I fleeced where fleece was none | |
| Your fervent limbs with flickers and tendrils of new | |
| Knowledge; I set your heart to its stronger beat; | |
| I put my strength upon you, and I threw | 65 |
| My life at your feet. | |
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| But I whom the years had reared to be your bride, | |
| Who for years was sun for your shivering, shade for your sweat, | |
| Who for one strange year was as a bride to youyou set me aside | |
| With all the old, sweet things of our youth;and never yet | 70 |
| Have I ceased to grieve that I was not great enough | |
| To defeat your baser stuff. | |
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V
But you are given back again to me | |
| Who have kept intact for you your virginity. | |
| Who for the rest of life walk out of care, | 75 |
| Indifferent here of myself, since I am gone | |
| Where you are gone, and you and I out there | |
| Walk now as one. | |
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| Your widow am I, and only I. I dream | |
| God bows his head and grants me this supreme | 80 |
| Pure look of your last dead face, whence now is gone | |
| The mobility, the panthers gambolling, | |
| And all your being is given to me, so none | |
| Can mock my struggling. | |
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| And now at last I kiss your perfect face, | 85 |
| Perfecting now our unfinished, first embrace. | |
| Your young hushed look that then saw God ablaze | |
| In every bush, is given you back, and we | |
| Are met at length to finish our rest of days | |
| In a unity. | 90 |